Holy Smokes another four years is going to be difficult on this lady. Gee I don't like our current president. Being a true sanguine by nature I knew early enough in the evening we lost, and put myself to bed almost needing to suck my thumb. This morning I woke up feeling like I had washed up on the Jersey shoreline after Hurricane Sandy, so upsetting was the reality as it sunk in.
For those of you who don't quite understand this dramatic feeling, there were faith issues involved for a whole lot of us, not simply an awful economy. This President has attacked my church, and its pretty much the only thing I can't and wont tolerate. I didn't like Clinton, but I could tolerate him because he wasn't so extreme, not so this time. I try really hard to be respectful to the office of presidency and for the first time in my life I want to throw up and that thought of being polite and respectful. So, even if you don't share my sentiments, I hope you can respect how deeply this hit me, and some of us.
Truly, I have never prayed as hard over any political event as this one. I was committed. And we lost. Badly. So what does this tell me?
Well, I would not be much of a christian if I counted my prayers efficacy based on how many times they were answered according to my will. The real test of any Catholic/Christian is accepting His will when it isn't what we ask for. Those small deaths to self happened all over our country today. So many faithful people watched as their hopes were dashed. It's intensely painful. It is also a necessary part of what we believe. I am old enough to know that God hears every prayer I utter, and cares about each hair on my head ( even the white ones colored over). But sometimes he has a plan that requires us to stop and wait. He is teaching us and loving us in those moments too.
The temptation is to think he has abandoned us, but he hasn't. He wouldn't be God if he did that. God is love. He must have a different plan than mine and today I must accept that and do my best to move forward in faith. I haven't the foggiest idea of what comes next, but I can trust in a father who watches over us all and desires that we abide in his love- together.
So, may God continue to bless our nation and our President even if some of us are finding it hard to do the same.
"Lord I believe, help my unbelief!" Mark 9:24